I was debating on whether I wanted to post this or not...but here goes:HOW TWILIGHT SAVED MY LIFE
PLEASE read it, I can't thank the person that I honestly want to (Ms. Meyer, of course)-but you all love the series as much as I do, so you are second best!
Since I have no where else to post this, I am going to write about my experience here (lucky YOU!).
First things first, I am 24 years old and I live in the northern part of the US.
I have had a pretty decent life so far- I have a college education, I live with my boyfriend of seven years, and I have a job that I like well enough.
But this past year I was suffering from severe depression-and I didn't realize it until I was in DEEP. See, I graduated college this last year, as did my best friends. And they all moved away from me- the farthest being across the country in California. This devastated me beyond belief, whether I realized it at first or not. My free time became pointless, because although I had my wonderful boyfriend to share it with (only sometimes, cause sometimes our work schedules clash) it wasn't enough. I KNEW something was missing. I developed seriously bad habits, eating terribly (which didn't help me cause I was already overweight) and racking up TERRIBLE credit card debts (ahhh so bad, I won't depress you with totals). I just wanted to fill the void that was left after my friends, whom I hung out with almost every day of the week, left me consumed in. My health was deteriorating (I was heading towards my father's life of diabetes and arthritis because of my terrible habits. I already have bad knees!
) and I was stuck in a downward spiral. My boyfriend and I would fight for no good reason and my "self destructing" behavior was ruining our relationship. Many times my boyfriend told me that he loved me and wanted to marry me (nothing that surprised me, cause we have been together for over 7 years) but he was having a hard time with the way I had been behaving. One time a few months ago, he gave me an ultimatum. He told me to get healthy (mentally first, then physically. Cause he couldn't stand to see me like my father who is in terrible
health at age 47) or we were done. Which scared me, A LOT-but I didn't know what to do and I was in a way too proud to reach out for help. I had gone the "therapist route" before, to no avail. I had taken anti-depressants, which barely helped also. Pretending that I was okay seemed to work fine (except for my boyfriend problem, my health, and my incredible credit-induced debt [that is manageable, but still terrible]).
So where is my "happy ending," you ask?
Well, a friend of mine (who is little more than a casual friend...keep in mind that all of my best friends moved away from me) asked me if I wanted to go see the movie "Twilight" on the first weekend that it was open. Since I had gotten caught up in the hype over the movie (no, I hadn't read the books before...but it seemed like everyone else had), I said "sure."
So, we went to go see the movie. And it felt like there was a lot missing from the plot. I asked my friend about this, and she said that there was a lot missing and that I should "read the book."
Of course I went out and got "Twilight" and "New Moon." And finished "Twilight" in less than 24 hours. I went out and purchased "Eclipse" and "Breaking Dawn" and consumed all four books in four days (and I read the partial draft of "Midnight Sun" in that time span also). For four days, I did nothing but read. I laughingly call the time my "Cullen coma."
Stephenie Meyer created such a pleasant world for myself to be lost in. I regained my "romantic side" after reading the books (come on, how can you NOT?!?) and realized that there was more to life than what I had been making it about. I realized how much I love my boyfriend and how much he is to me like Edward is to Bella. And I realized that I would do anything for him. I don't have to die to be with my boyfriend, I have to live. And so in the span of four days (with the magical writings of Stephenie Meyer on my side) I came up with a new personal philosophy. That I may not live forever but I needed to make the most of my time here-and I was not doing that.
Now I know that I have only been at it for a month now, but my life has changed 100%. Firstly, and most importantly, I am happy. And I know what I want...which is my happy ending with my "Edward." I don't need to dwell on what I don't have anymore-I need to celebrate what I DO have. (and yes, my eating habits have improved DRAMATICALLY and I am working towards getting healthy. I have a plan to get myself out of debt too, which should work pretty well considering I am curbing my compulsive part of my personality).
Thank you, Twilight series, for opening my eyes. I am forever indebted to you..."a lifetime of servitude is up for grabs." For real.