1. Did you feel a sense of foreboding in this chapter? At what point did you feel what was coming? Or did it take you by surprise?
Ever since Jasper tried to attack her and Edward hardly spoke on the way home, I KNEW something was up with him. For me, it was too soon and I kept feeling like they'd recover from it all. Even when Edward didn't go to see her one night, I thought that they had to snap back. When he took her into the forest, it was like I knew what he was going to do but he just couldn't. But he did. All the way through, in my head, I was responding in the same way as Bella. I didn't believe that he had the strength to leave and even as he was telling her goodbye, I didn't think for one moment that he wouldn't run back in seconds.
2. Just as Bella did, have you ever felt that subconscious desire to grasp a hold of a relationship slipping away?
Yes, but this is one I'd rather not talk about.
3. Edward speech was definitely a harsh one, but did it grasp reality for you as it did for Bella? Or were you expecting him to run back to her at any moment? Did you believe him as readily as Bella did?
I was expecting him to snap out of it and say "I can't do this" or stop it somehow. I thought that his almost goodbye kiss was going to turn into something and when it didn't, even when he'd gone, I still thought that he'd run back. I didn't want Bella to move from her spot in case he came back to find her, moments later.
4. When Sam appeared during the search, describe your gut reaction to his presence.
For me, that was the moment that I knew Edward wasn't coming back. As she was lying there, it could have been Edward coming to find her, to tell her that he wasn't going to leave. A false alarm. But as someone else found her, I realised that he wouldn't return. It didn't matter that it was Sam. It could have been anyone. Just the fact that it was anyone but Edward brought home to me that Edward was gone
(then the tears started)
5. Describe your reaction as you read the "months" pages
I was blank, just like the pages. It felt like months were slipping by me, what could I read that would stop the emptiness now? Unless Edward came back that night (which was unlikely) then I didn't know, one, what Bella would possibly be able to say or do and two, what I would be able to think of. For the rest of the book, I was waiting on edge for the mention of Edward's name. I needed it to be part of the book! And until Bella finally thought of him, heard his voice, I had a nagging inside, just turn the pages, read until Edward comes back. Because he has to! I was imagining how Bella must be dying, at every mention of him, when she thought of anything related to him or his world. The months pages symbolise her emptiness and there was nothing written becase she had nothing to write. Her world without Edward was nothing, no events worth mentioning. Days went by, slowly, uneventfully and unnoticed. She was only living as far as science determined. Breathing, yes. Actually living an enjoyable life, thinking thoughts and comminicating, no. Bella was in a hibernation until Jacob woke her up and when you're sleeping or hibernating, time goes by outside you. You exist outside reality. The world passed Bella by for months and failed to encapture her, enagage her or effect her in any way. And reading those months, flashing up, as if time was speeding ahead, I knew what was going through Bella's head. Nothing. Nothing she had to write anyway. Either months or the pages could have been filled with Edward's name, over and over again. Edward and time were the only things that she was aware of and the latter only slightly.