so i was feeling bored as usual and remembered that i havent visited or posted here in tooo long. i wasnt sure where to post this i was actually thinking of venting this out but towards the end it wasnt so much venting anymore more like catching up or just a need to get it out talk to someone. i dont really write in a journal whenever i do have one i tend to get out of the habit. i guess that means i should give it another try since it seems i have some things to say.
i have such a horrible history guys its just sad. and its all my own fault but like they say live and learn. i got married too young and regret it now cuz im still trying to fix it and finalize this divorce to a loser i should have known better than to marry. and then i get screwed out of my money( continued in just vent lol) and now im finally getiing there but not quite. sorry im all out of sorts, this post is all disjointed. i have a lot to say is and its an understatement lol!!
So there i was not a penny to my name and i went back to online dating which isnt bad when ur an adult, know a little bit more anout what u want and who u can imagine urself with. and after being with one guy since i was 21 yrs old. i also wanted to be wild and do all the things he was paranoid anout me doing ( even though he was still the only guy i had ever been with at the time) so yes i was wild and now i think (hope) im done lol, it was fun but also weird when u feel like the guy in a relationship....omg!!!! lol
So my point lol, i met someone that i think throws everyother guy i have ever known out of the water. but this time im back to being the girl. i really care about him and im pretty sure vise versa but we both have scars that run deep and i just hope that we will be able to forget the ones that hurt us, they r in the past and neither one of us wants to go back. i just have to be strong when he doesnt text and is too busy with his work and other friends to chat. easier said than done lol!!!!
o and after my drought of unemployment i finally got a permanent position thanks to months of working with an agency, i was just beginning to wonder if and when they were going to hire me and they did!!! 2 bucks raise and full benefits!!! yay!!!!!
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