by StickStones&&Techno » Fri May 28, 2010 8:53 pm
so there's this guy that i really like. i met him in march, and we are both in my friend's court for her quinceanera. he's sixteen and i'm fifteen. his name is joe. he's our dance choreographer, so he obviously knows how to dance, and that's something i find REALLY attractive. lately we've been getting really close. at first it was just teasing and we would fight over who my friend's dog liked the best. when we would be dancing, he'd like poke me or like jab me in the stomach or tickle me or something. he'd try to mess me up on purpose during our dances. he'd just tease me and call me a loser and such. like two weeks ago, i started having bad days or during practice i'd just get really irritated with everyone (except him), and one day, he came over, put his hands on my shoulders, and said, "what's wrong little one?" in like a joking way. i said that everyone was being really annoying and they were all treating me like i was five. and he said, "i'm not annoying you, am i?" and i said no. then when practice was over, he came to me and said, "i'll see you next week, right?" and i said yeah of course, and he gave me a hug. on monday, we had a mandatory church meeting, and we were all sitting in chairs. joe sat next to me, and the entire time, we had kind of a competition about who could pop the most parts of their body while going unnoticed by the lady that was leading the meeting, hahaha. on tuesday, we had another practice, and i was really pissed off the entire time because some people had been talking trash about me because he gave me a ride home. i was just really mad, and i was sitting alone in a chair, and he pulled up a chair and sat down facing me, and started smiling. he asked what was wrong and i didn't answer. then he kept trying to make me laugh, and it eventually worked.
now, yesterday, we were putting my dog down that we'd had for fourteen years, so obviously, i was not in the best mood. on top of that, i had practice. i was just serious the entire time, and when i went to go get a drink of water out of my bottle, and he came over and he'd already noticed that i was in a really bad mood because during the beginning of one of our dances, i was standing next to him, and he poked me in the side and i didn't respond. he asked what was wrong, and i was still drinking from my bottle when he said that so i obviously couldn't reply. he asked, school? friends? life? and i said, well it's friends, but mostly it's that we're putting my dog down in thirty minutes. and as i said, that i had a huge lump in my throat and it was noticeable in my voice and i almost started crying. his eyes looked really brokenhearted, and he said, wow, i'm so sorry. and then i turned away because i knew i was going to cry. after he knew what was wrong, he kept trying to catch my attention and tried to encourage me to smile, but it just wasn't happening. nevertheless, he still kept trying.
i went to check my phone during one of our breaks, and i saw that it was a picture message from my brother. he'd gone with my dad to put my dog down, and i could tell that it was a picture of her, i just was hoping it wasn't because i knew i wouldn't be able to keep it together. well, it was. and i started to tear up alot. joe saw me standing by myself, came over and asked what happened. when i told him, he said nothing, put his arm around my shoulder into an arm hug, held me by his side, and started rubbing circles on my arm in a consoling way. we stood like that for about three minutes. it really made me feel better.
after that moment, i began to feel better. i started smiling more and joe was paying attention to me. he started asking me to dance for no reason and like just talking to me alot and normally we would fight over the dog, but this time he just let me have her. he was going to put something on the chair next to him, but then he saw that i wanted to sit down, so he took it off and patted the seat and told me to sit down next to him.
i think he likes me, but alot of the time i also think that he's just being friendly or like an older brother. please help clarify?
(i'm REALLY sorry this is so long)