by DoNotFeartheDark » Sat Nov 07, 2009 3:27 pm
Sometimes I just want to slap boys upside the head and scream, "DIE!!"
But ah, unfortunately, I can't do that. D:
This is gonna be off topic, I know. Sorry. I might sound a little angst-ridden.
For me, the thing is, nobody likes me at my school. But I mean less problems right? Well I would believe myself if I wasn't so damn sensitive. I keep thinking somethings wrong with me, cosmetically or emotionally, while my friends around me keep having admirers and boyfriends like potato chips! DX
I know people say that "I haven't found the right guy yet" but I don't think that's gonna happen to me. But now, I am realizing that without boys, my life definitely is easier and that maybe the main reason nobody likes me at my school is because of my style.
My school runs on hip hop, R&B, rap and all that crap and I HATE IT LIKE HELL. I hate that music, but I don't hate people who listen to it (respect everyone's opinion, right?) and I listen to Classic rock, screamo, emo, punk, rock, and alternitive. Bands like AFI, Tokio Hotel, Fall Out Boy, Metro Station, Rise Against, Aerosmith, Kiss, AC/DC, stuff like that (and then random Techno music at the end of the day). I shop at Hot Topic nonstop while others shop at Papaya, Aeropostal(or whatever) and stuff like that. Others hate me for that. So I don't fit in at all. If you count of the exceptions when then rush to me for homework help cause I'm in honors, or gush " I draw good" Or "Write really good" or even "I sing well". I like praise, but they don't really mean it.
It sucks. Badly. So whenever I talk about my bands or wear band T-shirts, they eye me scornfully and make fun of me. Then I say something sarcastic or scathing to piss them off. =) But seriously, will things change in high school? (sorry, EXTREMElY off topic, but it concerns boys too. I thought one liked me, cause he was staring at me all the time while I really liked him a lot. Then on the last day of school, I found out he had a girlfriend D:)
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