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*takes a deeper breath out* x3
Ugh, I hate talking about my personal things!
Well, the problem that I've been having is not to do with girls. But more so with boys...
I'm the type of guy who doesn't stay friends with one for a period of time. Because I soon get bored with them (it's like when you get a toy from Santa, you get bored). Anyways. There is this guy, Dom, at my school, and I think he is so cute! and adorable!
He's taller than me (I'm just over 6 foot), but I'm 3 years older. He's in a longer grade, but that won't stop me. So there the flaws. But he's so cute and mature (I think). When someone was going to bombard him with a water balloon, he actually said "Wait wait wait. We can talk about this." Which I think is mature. And he's got big green eyes and he's just so cute!!!!!!!!!
So this is the story: I was late for school one day, so I had to report to the office. And when I came to the door, he walked out, and my heart immediately stopped. I swear he saw my eyes go wide, but I didn't give a sht. As long as he was attending the same school as I. As I got my late note, I walked down the stairs, but I took one last glance at him, and when I did I regretted it. He was staring at me too (I know that doesn't mean anything). Then the next day, I saw him walk past me. And the day after, I tried looking for him (which is something I don't usually do, because I can't be bothered, but I did) and he was talking with my cuzin. So I took the opportunity to talk to him, but then my cuzin would have noticed something, because she's so observant, so I ran like a coward. Then a couple weeks later, I see my friend (who is a girl) talking to him, so I took the chance again to make him pay attention to me, by talking to Venesa and asking questions about him. She doesn't care if I'm gay, because she actually wants me to be, but I haven't told her yet. Anyways. A couple of more weeks passed, and I started to like him more and know him better and vice versa (because he knew my name, which I never told him, so he must of got that from someone else).
On the last week of school, I was kind of a loner, because most of my friends always stay home for the last week. So I hung out with my cuzin in yr 8 and they were having water bomb fights, and so I joined. *Skip 3 days ahead* and now it was the second last day of school. And on that day he talked to me, saying "hey can I have a water bomb" which I replied with "yeah" (I know that doesn't mean anything). Then he kept asking me for me, because my back pack was fulled with already filled water balloons, so I kept giving them to him, because I fell under his charm (like what Bella does when she see's Edwards' eyes'). And then another kid asked me if he could have one and I immediately said no. Laugh.Out.Loud. So I think Dom caught something there.
Anyway thats my story. I'm sorry I didn't give much detail and I know Dom doesn't feel the same way I do towards him, but I'm a really shy guy (thanks to my slutty sisters who payed me out a lot about the way I look, which took away most of my self-esteem and confidence), so I didn't have the confidence to take all the opportunities I had to just talk to him.
I'm hoping I can tell my mum before school starts, but I don't know what to say. Because I'm Christian, so my mum won't allow it! But she said she loves me no matter what. So I'm hoping you can help me build my confidence up to talk to Dom, or a guy I might find later in life and what I can say to my mum.
Laugh.Out.Loud. I told you it was complicated and that you might not be able to help.
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*takes a deeper breath out* x3
Thanks for reading.
-Miista.