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For some reason I'm starting to thing we're becoming the freak-opedia of the Lexicon

To me they are different explanations for deja vu. One sayes that one of your eyes sends the message to the brain faster than the other so the image gets received twice. Other theory has to do with your brain doing a "backup" of your short time memory to your long time one and sometimes it gets duplicated. And there's also the premonition explanation, that is not the case for everyone or for everytime. I could have a dream that makes absolutely no sense to me at the moment and then live it months later, but most of the time I believe it's just my mind playing tricks on me.

Oh, I hate deja vu. It freaks me out. And it happens to me ALL THE TIME. I can't believe that my friends aren't tired of hearing me say it. It's not only that something happens and then again or seems to or whatever. I feel like the same situations happen again and again and again. And I end up having deja vu about deja vu!
I guess sometimes I dream things and then they happen.
Maybe, I don't know.
Maybe I'm a psychic and I don't even know it. Doubt it, though. Then again, who knows? Maybe I'm just really perceptive.
Oh well.
I think that means I'm still human either way.

I don't think I would want to be a vampire or any other kind of immortal being unless I had an Edward. Not Edward, per se, but my very own soul (or lack thereof) mate.

Wow, it's weird that I came across this, I've actually started thinking whether or not I was but I really don't kown. In college my roommate always use to say and tell everyone that I was a vampire. I don't know if it was in reference to my endless Lost Boys posters or that I was awake all night and slept all day while everyone one else was in class (my roommate and my other friends were envious of the fact that I liked/maybe loved the night and hated daylight) so I was always introduced as the "vampire" and I think some people actually started to believe it after witnessing patterns.

But I don't think that's the reason why I think that I may not be "human" in the sense. On a personal note, I've never been able to emotionally connect with anyone except those people that I've come across in book (for example the Cullens and other mystical people). Maybe I'm living through them afraid of something but I haven't figured it out yet, in all of my 36 years (soon to be 37 in a matter of hours) I've had only one emotional bond to someone and he had the same bond (but really accept it due to his addicitons but was told by his friends that there was something between us that they've never seen before) but then my son came and I'm emotionally tied to him but not in the same way (I can't but my mind around why, I think it may be because he reminds me to much of him and something that I lost and couldn't save).

I really don't have any friends (the one's that I thought were my true friends to the core have in essence abondoned me and have basicaly moved on with their lives and families now that it's convient for them, in my opinion). My friends have turned into my family but I don't really feel the same there either.

I think looking for that one person who I can't live without and wondering if I found him and now that he's gone, I have nothing? Yes, my son keeps me going only physically but emotionally, I feel I'm alone and will never be whole again.

Does that make me less human or unable to feel? I know after reading this the whole majority may think I need to see a therapist but psychology is my specaility, that what I majored in college and I constantly try to keep learn.

But I wonder to myself, if we do find our soul mate and then they are gone do we ever recover or feel human again?

Feathers wrote:Hehe Deja Vu happens a lot, I'm learning. It's really fun, but I've found no way to control it, or use it all the time. Like, I don't know how to "look ahead" like Alice does, you know? Just keep running with it, and one thing you can try to develop ESP, is get a deck of cards, and facedown, try and guess the color of the card. Just make your mind blank, and go with the first one that comes to mind. If you do exceptionally well, try guessing the suit, instead,and work up to guessing the entire face. It'll really help your intuition, which will help your ESP and Deja Vu. It'll also help you, as a human-centric being, realize that 'hey this thing... this intuition, is really here' and it'll help you become more aware of it and trust it more.

<3 Ren

Thanks for the advice Ren! I've been thinking about looking into this thing more. I'm going to try the deck of cards experiment. If this is something people can learn to control, I'd like to work on it. I don't know if intuition has anything to do with the deja vu, but I always go with my gut feelings even if they don't make sense at the time. I'm glad someone else makes sense of this, I was starting to feel like I was crazy.

skylarblue wrote: But I wonder to myself, if we do find our soul mate and then they are gone do we ever recover or feel human again?

I don't think it makes you less human, but at the same time, once you find your soulmate you will lose the ability to experience some human emotions, like true love, because you always end up feeling incomplete and even when you can love and feel conected to someone, it will never be the same. It doesn't mean that just because you feel this way, that person was your soulmate, only you can know that. But there's always this misconception that just because someone is your soulmate, he will always be with you. Sometimes they come into your life with a higher purpose, maybe your son is that purpose and the things that you will experience with him are the ones that will make you feel complete. And I know when the pain is in the soul, no psychologist can take it away. I'm no psychology major and I don't know everything in the world, but at least this is the way I feel about it, having lost my soulmate myself.

hahahahah i love this thread! ever since i was a little kid I thought i was supposed to turn into a mermaid some time in my life. I have webbed toes & am a very good swimmer. plus when i swim laps, i instinctively keep my mouth open for some reason!

I've thought so many, many times. And not even, necessarily, for any one good reason. Just little tiny things make me feel like I'm not sometimes. Like, having a crazy sixth sense about things that are going to happen. I swear that I am able to somehow avoid and/or avert death because I've evaded it so many times. Also, after reading "Blue Bloods" I have some strange feeling that I can sense my past lives or something and I'm somehow part of some long line of memory chains or something. It's probably all just wishful thinking, just like when I found out that I couldn't go to Hogwarts after thinking for so long that I was a witch/wizard.... *sigh*

i had the wickedest case of de ja vu the other day....its a really long story so i wont go into it but it was like the whole day was on repeat and i was really freaked out because none of it happened before...it was weird