I came on to have a whine about how I feel pulled between several directions and found that you've had the same rant already Sarah! I hope you're not as in demand as you were and you've found some you-time.
I'm at the point where I'm so tired I'm overtired and can't sleep
between studying and school and family stuff all I want is a day to crash in bed and ignore the world. Tomorrow is my only day off for a while, and I stupidly agreed to go help my friend pick out an engagement ring for his girlfriend. I don't even want to leave the house, much less be dragged around in awful weather looking at the same ring over and over in different shops. Plus, looking at engagement rings is basically looking at the future. My friend is becoming adult and understanding rings, and I just don't feel there at all. I'm still trying to get a career on track, without considering marriage... And looking at the prices of rings and the stress that seems to surround it makes me realise it's going to be a long time before my boyfriend and I get engaged. It's crazy, because I wasn't bothered about getting engaged yet at all until I realised how far off we are, and now it makes me feel like I'm falling behind when I'm well aware there isn't even a deadline.