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I'm so upset. I found out today that one of my friends has started cutting himself. : (

hm...ive never vented here....i think its time

IM SO FLIPPING TIRED OF MY EX!
i said it perfectly to my friend today:
me - do you think i screwed myself over with this whole jamie thing?
erin - yeah
me - the problem was, while i was screwing myself, he was too
erin - exactly
gahhhhhh!!!!!!
i cant repeat the whole story, its too painful
but he flipping lies to me and then never talks to me and then he decides to stare at me at this party and it freaks me out! cuz im acting like a spaz laughing my butt off and yelling and hes just staring at me blankly and it freaks me out!
GAHHHHHH!

school sucks!! school sucks!! school sucks! seriously!

Ugh, I don't know what to do. Suddenly life is so busy, and I need to be there for people, but I have no idea how. I don't know what to say, because I can never understand the situation. It really kills me to know that good people are having to go through this. Life isn't fair.

I'm frustrated with how my life has become one long, mundane routine. I'm sick of my classes; they are boring and present no challenge to me. So I've started skipping classes. I can't explain it, but I feel compelled to skip. I'm standing at the train station and I watch the train roll in and I don't move. I just stand there and watch it stand until it rolls out of the station, then I go to my car and hang out around town until it's time for me to drive home so that it'll look like I've gone to class. And the worst part of this is that two of my classes have a policy that states that each class I've missed after three classes takes my grade down an entire point. I've missed about 7 classes total for each class.

Next semester I'm going to take courses that are interesting and challenging. I'd rather struggle to keep up with the class than continue to take "safe" classes that bore me to tears.

And on top of that I gained five pounds in a week! Ugh! So annoyed and unhappy. ):

at college. barely know ANYONE. so naturally i know almost no guys. so....where i work on campus.. it's just me and bunch of guys (woo, manual labor!). anyway.. one of the guys i work with is SO nice and he actually remembered my name! i never een had to tell him!!! so naturally, i become infatuated on the spot. heh heh heh. sigh. anyway. i made note of his last name on the schedule and found him on FB when i got back to my dorm. he doesn't have a girlfriend..... HE'S ENGAGED. jesus h. christ.
WHY!?

sigh. okay. i feel better now.

Awww I'm sorry Sam! that's awful!!!!

I just started high School...so i don't know ANYONE.
Lots of homework so I'm always so busy...everyone looks at me because i'm a dork. but there's this guy who always stares at me...so i'm kinda getting a crush on him..he's cute...but i don't know if he's looking at me or my friend i always hang out with.

THe worst part of it all is that I have a 68% on my Geometry class!! It's going to be my first time getting anything lower than a B+. I felt like crying when i found out!! that class is killing me so badly!!

wow this does work..thanks Vent thread!!! <3