by simplymortal314 » Tue May 04, 2010 9:55 pm
Okay,
I haven't been on here in a long time. But, who am I kidding myself. I think/believe I do like Brad, again. He says the most impossibly sweetest things and honestly when I'm having a bad day nothing makes me feel better than seeing him, him making me laugh, and one of his hugs. In March I had a birthday party. Beforehand I was freaking out about my gift box party favors and not being all ready and just generally stressed. One day when I was near tears I tell him how I was feeling when he asked and pulled me in for a long hug. It made me feel so much better and calm. And we've hung out so much lately too. Two days ago I was on my own to study for the AP US Gov't and Politics Exam and in a desperate one last attempt I messaged him over facebook my plan that I was going to a coffee shop we both like to study and if he had a chance he should come by. He did. Since I had walked there (my parents had my car) and his mom couldn't come get us and I didn't live too far away and it was dark, he walked me to my house before getting my car and dropping him off at his house. He said, "I wasn't about to let you walk home alone in the dark; I'd be too worried about you getting home safe" And he'd say things like that a lot now, showing he cares. I never know how to respond. And after my party several of my family friends have asked my parents if Brad and I were dating. Some have even just said we make a cute couple. One of my dad's co-workers even asked if we were engaged after Brad and I stopped by my dad's work to drop off some ice cream for him. And now I feel all this stress about housing for college and summer programs to take and I want to talk to him about it, but I don't know. I've reached for the phone to call him at least five times while writing this. I don't know what to do. The thing is that he also likes one of our mutual friends, but doesn't really want to date her. And she might like him too. Then another mutual friend does like him, but I don't think he sees her as more than a friend.
I'll be back more after this week hopefully.
Jennifer

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