Awww, Mike is absolutely the sweetest! He sounds so old-fashioned haha. I love it! I'm so happy for you, hon! :]
Wow, that was really sweet of Greg! You're a lucky girl. ;] That sounds amazing. And I'm sorry he's on vacation, but you'll be okay. And just think, it'll be even better when he comes back. ;] :]
Oh, God. Ben is too cute for words! Really. That's so sweet. And I'm really glad that you guys are flirting more. That shows some progression in your relationship. ;] But don't worry about that smiley / question mark stuff. You're overanalyzing. Some people just overuse that stuff. It's not a big deal. You know how he feels when he's with you, you don't need to interpret that stuff haha. But I can't wait for him to kiss you! I'm so happy for you. :] Oh and love can't be defined. It just can't. It means different things to different people and there are different kinds of love. It's just one of those things that's way out there and we can try to comprehend it but we never will. I realize that doesn't help at all haha. But love is tricky.
Haha, I love you. Jacob sounds amazing. Seth Cohen boys are my favorite! Totally! So too bad you didn't get his number. Can you friend him on Facebook or something? You need to keep him around. ;] But I'm so so so sorry about this Jeff creeper! I'm sorry creepers are all over you! Just let him down easily and then never talk to him again! You'll be okay. Just breathe. And you may want to start carrying mace. ;] :] But I'm with you; I WANT A LEX PORTAL!
Welcome back. I'm really glad you're feeling better. :] As for Mike... don't pay any attention to that stuff. So what if he's giving mixed signals; all boys do. They're dumb. (Sorry, HOLDEN! ;]) But if you want to be friends with him, then talk to him. Just communicate with him and joke with him. It's easier to detect signals that way, anyway. But way to dazzle Stanley! Haha that's awesome. That's my girl. ;] :]
Okay. Listen. Age shouldn't really be a factor in relationships but... at your age, it is. You're underage, first of all. And dating a minor isn't against the law, but it's looked down upon... Second of all, 22-year-olds are WAY more experienced than 16-year-olds. They've been through more, they know more, and they want different things. That's the important part. You'll both want different things. You're mom's right; you won't have as much in common as you should or think you will. Then there's the fact that he's your brother's best friend and you work with him. Dating coworkers is never good. And dating sibling's friends isn't always such a great idea either... sometimes it works, sometimes not. And then what? If you DID try to have a relationship and it ended, where would that leave things? You know? I just think that at this point, it's not such a great idea for you to date him. That doesn't mean you can't be totally in love with him and all, but it means you just need to realize that maybe you should wait for someone you're more compatible with. But hey, that's just me. :]
Girl, I'm sorry that you miss Jake so much. He broke up with you because of the distance thing; that's what I think. You feel like it's not that big of a deal, but at this age it is. Try not to hang out with him at the concert if you can help it. That'll make it harder for you to be without him. I'm not saying you have to get over him... but I'm saying you need to realize that you're probably not going to be with him. That should help you disconnect from him. As for K, I'm glad that you guys are hanging out and stuff. And if you don't want a relationship with him right now, be sure to let him know that before he gets the wrong idea. Just be honest with him. I think you two are amazing as best friends and you should stay that way for a while. I think you need to stand on your own two feet without a guy for a while, too. So you can get stronger emotionally, you know? I hope all is well with you. :]
People who would say that to you aren't worth your time anyway. Don't worry, middle school will pass. More quickly than you can imagine. And it's really not that bad. But you really should start talking to HUG when you can. Don't be afraid. I don't think he's in any position to badmouth you or diss you so I think it'll be fine. Maybe once he gets to know you, he can get other people to lay off. Bullies are stupid. Just always remember that. But you've got to put yourself out there and not fear rejection! Everyone gets rejected in life. It's natural. You can't worry about that or you'll miss out on so many things. Good luck. :]
Awwwww, hon, I'm so sorry! I can't believe he's dating a college girl. Look... I know this would be hard for you and you'll be totally against this but... I think you need to tell him how you feel. You can't keep living like this, getting hurt by him when he doesn't even know it. You won't be hurting him, if that's what you think. You just need to be honest with him. You owe it to yourself and he deserves to know, too. So I think you should tell him how you're feeling. And you're going to have to support his relationship. Even if you don't like it, it's what makes him happy so you should try to be happy for him. I realize you're not in a good position right now, but the only way you're going to be happy about it is if you decide to be happy about it and deal with it. Good luck, sweeite. :]
Yay, Eli read Twilight! That's great. Even if he DID only give it a three out of five. That's not too bad considering he's a guy. That's cute, though. :] And who knows, maybe he is a werewolf! That'd be so cool... hahaha. :] I'm just glad he makes you so happy. You deserve it. :]
Haha sounds like a fun filled day with Lu... Lol. ;] But wow... Josh, manskanky much? Hahaha. That's insane. I'm glad you don't want to date him, you just want to bang him. Haha that sounds terrible but it's true. I imagine he wouldn't be the best with relationships. Maybe that's Lu's problem? Who knows. :]
So yesterday was okay.
We had strike after school. It's where we take apart the stage and stuff. Well, we volunteered for the EASIEST job... cleaning the dressing room. (Emily and I did.) So we did that for about two hours... haha. Even though it took twenty minutes. We hung out in there the whole time. I made her tell me how far she went with Joey... she was all embarrassed. But it wasn't that bad, so I don't know why she was embarrassed. And then he came in with us and acted like nothing ever happened with Emily. He's being weird. They kissed when I wasn't looking. But that's it. He talks to me more than he does her even though he likes her. And it upsets her. So Andy and I have been telling him to talk to her! But I don't know, it's just weird. The whole situations is a little iffy at this point. But I think they're going to date. It may take some time, which is fine, but they'll date. And it'll be cute. I'm excited. :] So then Coomer kept getting on my nerves because he came in and we made him leave. And we YELLED at him about leading Julia on (one of my good friends) so that was good haha. And Patrick came in to hang and he helped me mop the floor and... I love that kid. Haha. When I left, I gave him about a ten minute hug because he was having a conversation with someone and I didn't want to pull away. It was cute. And I saw him in his car on my way out with his dad and I blew him and kiss just so his dad would be like, "Who's that?" Haha. Oh Patrick. But Andy took me home. It was sweet that he asked. We just sort of talked about everything. Nothing specific though. And he smoked about five cigarettes... Oh man. And then when he dropped me off, he got out of the car to hug me and my dad was all mad. Haha.
And on Facebook, Tim said we need to go to Into the Woods together (our school's musical) so that'll be fun. Emily's coming, too. I'm excited to hang out with him again. The only problem is that it's in about two months... haha.
Anyway Jordan was kind of awkward on the bus today. I mean, he was flirting with me a lot and like laying on me. It was kind of weird...
Oh, and Andy was telling me about all these weird dreams he's been having. And I'm in most of them. So he was looking up what it means and he was like, "It says you're in my dreams a lot because I care about you and I think about you a lot." So I asked if he thought about me a lot. And he said, "A little." So I said, "A little a lot?" And he said, "We'll round it off at a lot." Haha. And then he was like, "You can ask me anything you want, I'm in a gracious mood." Haha. So I asked him why he liked me and he said, "Because you're amazingly beautiful and sweet and smart and funny and fun to be with and you have a great personality." Haha aww. I also asked when he lost his V-card and he said two years ago... But yeah... So today we talked at lunch about this problem he's having with Maggie (our mutual friend) like she's being kind of emo and weird and he doesn't know how to handle it. So I gave him some advice. (Surprise! Haha.) Then he said:
Him: Can I ask you a favor?
Him: Can you help me quit smoking?
Me: YES! Why do you want to?
Him: I don't know, I don't like it anymore and I hate that I do it.
Me: Okay, great!
Him: And Cara wants me to quit drinking.
Me: Well do YOU want to quit drinking?
Him: Yeah. Kind of. After that party, yes...
Me: Okay! Cool. So what do you want me to do?
Him: Nag at me. A lot.
Me: No problem.
Him: And don't tell anyone. I told Cara I'm doing this by myself. But I'd never get anywhere without your help. And I can't trust this with anyone else. So yeah.
Me: Of course.
So yeah. I'm going to be helping him quit smoking and drinking. I'm really proud of him. And Cara, for helping him, too. But yeah, this should be interesting.
Oh! And by the way, I just deciphered one of the texts he sent me at the cast party when he was drunk... it took forever but I got it. It says, "I said some stupid sh*t and I don't want to f*ck up our friendship because I have feelings and I want things but I don't want them if you don't." So yeah... interesting...
So yeah. I'm sorry that was a NOVEL. But hey, that's me. :]