Bella_Cullen_13 wrote:I have no idea, none in the slightest, what to do. I hate spilling my guts to random people, but I hate burdening, trusting & talking to people I know even more. I would keep everything in, as Ive been trying for so long, its just too hard. I just need to say everything & anything thats on my mind & have someone give me solid advice, with logic behind it, Im not sure if I even need logic anymore, just an answer that is undeniably correct. Im not sure if Im ever going to get it because Im back to, there is no one to talk to, no one I can trust (that absolutely sucks when you get to the point where you cant trust anyone around you). Even if there was, I hate to rely on others. Im probably going to have to turn to one thing that always helps, for awhile anyway. How Ive missed my friend. (that sounded sinister in my mind) Its late, no one would notice, nor would they care - Im used to it, as more words are screamed out at me with a hateful passion. - The same as anything else I hear. My iPod is the only thing that can drown out the words that leave deep cuts on paper hearts.
I wish that I had an answer, the answer. I wish someone would tell me the one sentence in the whole, entire world, that would fix everything, that would make me feel better,that would drive me away from what Im feeling. I wish there was some hope, or a guarantee that this would change. More than anything, I wish that I knew tonight, I wish it was over, tonight. I dont care how this is fixed, just fix it. - I'll do my part if you do yours.
Im gone for the night, maybe longer if I was to be so lucky. I know I wont be, nothing works out in my favor. Ever.
I'm, sorry, I tried to read that, but I couldn't make any sense of it.
Uh, what's wrong?