My beautiful and lovely friends!!!!
First of all I'm so sorry I've been away for more than 2 weeks now. Work has been crazy and problems are trying to get solved, so the last time I worte on here we were on page 30 something. So basically I'm over 60 pages behind and regret it. But now i'm back for today but can't guarantee when i'll be on again since work is still insane and i'm leaving to Lebanon in 3 weeks (yay!!). And I really do miss you guys and gals because you guys make me feel that there's a reason for one to move on. Now i want to answer both questions:
!.How has the Twilight universe and the Lex inspired you?
Well everyone who knows me knows that I found out about Twilight through a friend and didn't decide to read it until I gave up on finding good books to read (I'm veryyyy picky). The Twilight universe was the only place I found myself able to escape to through mind heart and soul. It captivated me and I felt it's reality live through me. I know this sounds cheesy but you guys know what i'm talking about. I honestly didn't find myself completely and utterly hooked until I was reading NM. I felt Bella's pain because I also lost someone special to me and it brought back the memories. i wanted to hear his voice like Bella thought she heard Edward's. I tried finding ways to bring him back in my head. So Nm helped me vent alot of tension and tears that were hidden. And I for once felt understood. And found a place to escape when I needed to forget the wolrd bit, and find my "shoulder" to cry on. But other than that, I felt that there was something I wanted to be a part of. And like, others this is my first online book club/ forum I joined. I met the most amazing people that share the same passion with me. Who also suffer obsessive cullen disorder as I do, and don't think of me as weird because I was addicted to this fictional world and talked about it like it was real, and also have fallen in love with a guy that can never exist. So to make this short Twilight is my happy place. When everything's wrong or I don't feel okay, I escape to the Twilight universe to forget alot of problems and pain, adn to get my soul filled up with hope that it will get better one day. And the lex, well, jjust the fact that the most amazing and loving people that I met in my life are part of the lex is enough love and inspiration i need to last me a lifetime. Because you guys are with me through thick and thin. Annd we are there for each other 24/7.
2. I'm actually single right now but i still have a loooooooooong way since I;m only 20. I did meet a guy that was my Edward when I was 16 back in my country. We were madly in love and he was just waiting for me to finish high school for us to get engaged. My mom never knew because she wanted to do the whole arranged marraige thing and with non other than my cousin (YUCK!!!!!) My dad secretly knew when i visited him and I guess approved since he never pressured me about it. And I went back home to live with my mom and he knew why and didnt fight with me about it. So I went back home and my dad came to visit the country for a month. My mom found out I had a bf and wanted my butt shipped off with my dad so that she could ruin his plans of getting married. I was deprived of school and sunlight for 3 days and had a stomache virus and also got a good beating. Then I ran away to my bf the third night and kept me safe until morning so he can go talk to my dad. (ANd we didnt do anythign so no dirty thoughts girls!!!
) Unfortuantely my mom filled my dad's head with ideas that my bf was a drug dealer and a thief and an addict which was of course ridiculous but he believed her about it. So he fond me the next morning before we went to find him. I was never able to say goodbye and I never saw him again. And then i had to choose betwen either satying in Lebanon with my bf being in jail for charges of kidnapping ( my uncle was a big general and anyone with power can put an angel into jail if he wanted to) or I would come to live with my dad and know that he was free and safe. Of course I live with my dad now. I have been forced to let go of him, and still have trouble getting over him but I know that one day i'll be ready again to love someone. I'm going to Lebanon in 3 weeks and ironically my mom lives in the same neighborhood he does now now. So it will be awkward when i see him on the streets again. And I won't do anything but smile and keep walking. And I just hope he was able to move on as I am trying to now :] So no hubby and single. I am trying to put myself out there and want to take things slow. I just hope i meet Mr Right. And it would be a plus if he loved Twilight too
So that's my answer. And I hope to be around again soon.
Love to my Ladies