First I would just like to say, this is probably my second, if not my favorite chapter of Twilight, for many reasons. It's just such a special and tender moment between Bella and Edward, how couldn't anyone love it?
1. Given everything we learn from Edward about the fact that he was able to stop from drinking Bella's blood, but that he didn't like how she smelled when she had a transfusion, what does that say about his control over the way he thirsts for her blood? Do you think drinking her blood makes it easier or harder for him to resist now?
I definitely believe that drinking her blood makes it easier for him to resist her. Now, he knows how her blood tastes and the anticipation of just DYING to drink from her is gone because he now knows the taste. Yes, her blood still calls to him and he LOVES the taste, but he can resist because he's tasted once and knows what he's resisting.
2. Edward admits that Alice has seen Bella as a vampire. Why do you suppose, since he of all people knows it's crazy to deny Alice's visions, that he is so resistant to giving in and changing Bella?
Even though he knows it is crazy to deny Alice's visions, he also is able to hold on to the small hope that the future is not set in stone and that something could change that stops Bella from becoming a vampire. He has never wanted the fate of becoming an immortal for anyone, most heavily due to his belief of immortals lacking a soul, so of course he doesn't want that same fate for Bella, no matter how much she does, or thinks she does.
3. Bella begs Edward to never leave her. Although he never exactly promises NOT to leave her, he does say it would be impossible for him to even try. Knowing what we know about New Moon, do you think he was saying this as a way to tide Bella over and keep her calm for now? DO you think he had plans even at this point in the story to one day leave her?
At that point, I think two things specifically were playing in Edward's mind. One was living with Bella forever and keeping her safe with him until the days she died. The second were contingency plans of leaving and keeping her safe in the same sense and away from him and all vampires until the day she died. Both plans came out in his response. He couldn't leave her if he tried because the first thought was just too appealing, but he would leave her if he had to because the second thought was the "right" thing to do. They contradicted themselves, but as did his answer to Bella. The signs were there.
4. Bella and Edward argue about her becoming a vampire, to which he point blank says that he will never do that to her. When I first finished reading Twilight, I was very torn over whether or not Bella should become a vampire. How did you feel at this point? Try to ignore all the discussions you've had here at the lex and focus on your first initial reaction. Did you think Bella should be changed right away and leave her family and life behind, or did you think Edward was being sensable to tell her that her mortality was important and more natural than anything he could give her?
In general, I'm a pretty rash person, especially when I'm living vicariously. I say, why not take a risk and live happily? No matter the situation. Initially, I don't even think I gave a second thought to what Bella would be losing. I know Edward stated it a thousand times, but like Bella, I was more focused on what would be gained. From the beginning, I've been pro-bite. NEVER once doubting Bella's view or falling under Edward's persuasion. "Change her already!" I must have screamed a thousand times. Edward was sensible, but it honestly never mattered.
WARNING: EDWARD CULLEN IS NOT EFFECTIVE BIRTH CONTROL! E<3B