thanx all, it means a lot to me. My mother didnt really understand, she just kept saying, how much money it was gonna cost. Yeah, as if she didnt pay huge amounts of money when our dog was getting strokes in her last year.
Anyway ive got a big migraine now, so my heas a lill stuffed.
@paulinha, i know i know, but i also know where we came from. When i met sid, he had some financial shoot , most of them because of his ex, and well, he even lost his house and almost all of stuff (which got stolen or broken and such). He had a big debt and well, he was even officially homeless for a while. I am very proud to say that we payed every debt he had all on our own, while we also had our own lill appartment which costed a lot of money aswell. It took us a big 3 years to pay it all, but we are totally debt free now. I think its been that way for 2 years now. Sid still kept his job, although he had to give almost all of his salary to the debts, and he could have just gotten social security, which would have meant the goverment would pay his debt in a way. But he worked for it, and we struggled with all the bills for years. Most of the time we got 100 euro to live from, the whole month. 2 of us, incl smkoing, bdays, clothing, food and such. Not to mention his son. But we did it, and we came out stronger than ever. We dont have any debt now, and we wont ever take a loan again, not if i can help it. But we still arent rich. Because every time you get a lill more money, youll notice things that you have to take care of, like certain insurances, alimoney, and so forth. So yes we do have more money now than we did back then. And we can live pretty good, for our standards. But i also know most ppl pay for groceries in a week what i pay for a month (or 2). I guess it just all depends on how important you think things are.
And right now, Loki is important. And if we have to eat bread with eggs for a few weeks, so be it, i wont mind. (it prolly wont be that bad, but you know what i mean)
Well, thats the story in a nutshell, trust me, if i told everything i would be talking for over a week. Weve had some bad times, but we got through them, and learned a lot. We know how strong we are, and that we will get through anything. But it still doenst make this any easier.
 i have the sweetest boss -ever-. not only did she arrange for me the have monday off and ask how Loki was, but she also has calculated the bonus of this month and the last months (we missed them because we needed a new financial man at work), so that we will have them payed this month. Thats gonna be a lot of help with the bill of the vet.