You are not alone Katwomankath.
I'm navarre, been on this forum since Sept. 2008. I'm 44 and still very young as far as I'm concerned.
Here's background - for what's worth:
Graduated 1982 at 17.
Married at 18 and left with the hubby to Air Force.
Had daughter at 22.
Violent marriage, drug & alcohol abuse and finally divorced him to live & not die
on March 21, 1997 at 8:25 a.m.
Made single motherhood work and worked my butt off.
Daughter is married and has a daughter of her own - 4 mos. old.
I'm doing fine and enjoy coming to this forum daily to chat all things Twilight.
I live for these books - they give me a chance to live vicariously through the characters and enjoy the ride.
I hope my little bio does not make people uncomfortable, but there you have it, basically, in a nutshell.
Oh, and I would love for an "Edward" to come into my life and prove me wrong about relationships in general and men in particular. Yeah, I know, it's only a fictional fantasy. But still.... *sighs*