So this past week has been a rollarcoaster of emotions, to be cliched. Just when I'm feeling comfortable in my friendship with Brad and we are openly teasing each other and the such Carol gets in my head. Let me explain last week was Brad's birthday and since his family doesn't do much for birthdays and we had a late start on the day of and he still went to school early a friend and I took him from school as he was getting there and took him to her house to eat breakfast. The night before I had made him a card, as I do for most of my friends, and gave it to him after breakfast as we were driving back to the school. It basically said that he had no idea how much I appericate our friendship and how much it means to me. After school I gave him a ride home and when got out of the car he leans back in and tells me, "Thank you. You made my day wonderful" Well unknowest to him Laura and I were planning a surprise birthday party for him and we weren't inviting his ex, Carol. The party was a blast and I enjoyed the part where I pushed his face into the cake.
The problem comes whenI uploaded some pictures of the party on facebook along with some videos. Carol sees them and talks to Laura about it. On Monday Laura came to me and told me how Carol had asked why she wasn't invited to the party. Laura told her that she had told many people to tell Carol about the party, including me. Carol then said she understood then why she didn't get the memo and that she had a theory. Laura aksed what this theory is and Carol says, " I think that Jennifer likes Brad" and that apperently I wouldn't want her there when I'm trying to talk to/flirting with Bard . Carol continues to say that she was going to talk to me about it, not baout my not inviting her to the party, but telling me it's okay for me to like Brad and that I have her approval. First of all I don't need her approval to like him, which I don't and second of all he broke up with her and wants nothing to do with her in that sense.
Now, though I was happy that Brad and I are friends and all, but Carol got into my head. And I can't stop thinking of Brad and wheather I like him like him or not. I don't want to like him more than a friend, but it feels out of my concious control. And tonight (friday) I'm going to see new moon with two friends and him and maybe his sister. Then there's the chance that Carol told him her theory which would make things very awkward and GAH!!! I just don't know what to think anymore. For now my plan is to continue playing along as friends and maybe pull back a little on the attention I give him and such. Still, my thoughts are all jumbled up and blah.
By the by, Susie did find me on here and well she is slowly gaining my trust of talking to her about these kinds of things. What makes me uncomfortable is that she knows all of the people I know and it just feels weird.
Love you all!