Hey guys. Well, I’m done trying with the guy from lit class. We have lit together again this semester, same teacher. I tried to sit next to where he’s been sitting since school started two or three weeks ago. I saw him and smiled and he did too, but he went to a different table. I was so disappointed. I went over to my regular seat, hid behind my hair (traditional Bella-like), and just started crying for several minutes. I felt pathetic, but I couldn’t help it. I eventually stopped, and picked up my pen to write down our notes, and focused on the lecture. I’m not nearly as upset as I was last week, but I still have a tiny twinge of disappointment. Oh well. He didn’t answer his Facebook preference anyway, and that’s a dead give away right there. I always fall for the gay ones. I have no problem with them, it just gets frustrating after a while. Aren’t there any straight ones left?
Yesterday I got my hair cut, and it’s got layers, framed around/towards my face. It has a swoop of a bang to the left side, wavy, and it’s barely just below my shoulders. I had such long hair before, but I love the way it is now too. Anywho. Today there was a really, really hot older guy who we’ve always acknowledged each other but never really spoken to each other. He sat down on the bench in the hallway and I had my bag beside him and I was coming back from the bathroom. I’d left my bag on the bench he had just sat down at and had to reach and get my bag because he was sitting in on it, and he smiled and apologized. I smiled too and said he was fine. Later when I got on my (5 hour!!!!!!!) break, I went to the library, and he was studying at a table. I sat my stuff down, trying not to disturb him, and a few minutes later he got up to leave because he had to get to his next class. He was like, “Do you need the table?” or something. I said I was fine, I was just setting my stuff down to get lunch. And he said, smiling and winking at me, “Well, you have it now.” I smiled, more than likely blushing which I think he may have liked (or not *shrug*) and said, “Thanks.” So stupid, but oh well. Not to mention I’m wearing a low-cut blouse and I was bending over to dig into my backpack for my lunchbox, and I’m very heavily chested for my age (something I’m very self-concious about). I should’ve been more careful, but part of me still wonders about that... And the thought of THAT makes me blush a little too. Eeeeeek!!!!!!!!! So yeah, you can tell I’ve not dated much at all.
I saw him in the hallway when I was going into Lit and we smiled at each other but that was it. He's not in any of my classes, I just see him in the hallway. I was texting one of my friends being very racy, but I couldn't help it, he's that good looking. Haha. But then again, every time I think a guy likes me or was flirting with me I've been wrong just because I hardly have any experience in that area and don't know how to read it. So maybe I'm just imagining it after all. :/
Sorry I didn’t give any advice this time. I’m too tired right now to go back and read all of the previous posts. Again, sorry. I’ll try to get to it when I’ve got more energy.