1.What did you think of Bella's epiphany? Do you think she was justified in believing that Edward didn't love her and that the fact that he really did stunned her?
I truly believe that Bella didn’t see herself as worthy of Edwards love. She saw him as Adonis, a godlike creature. Although not being like a typical teenager, I’m sure, she still had some teenage angst and self doubt. When Bella meets someone like Edward, an ‘angel’ as she's said, I can see how it was impossible for her not to wonder and puzzle over what it was that attracted Edward to her, an insignificant human, according to her.
2.How did you feel about the way the vote went? Did you understand Edward's reasoning?
Edward’s vote was pretty clear right from the word go – he did not want Bella to make such a big sacrifice and he was going to do anything to avoid it (if I was in his shoes, I’d think the same way, even though I think he took some things way too far – but that’s a different conversation…).
What about Rosalie's?
I kind of had a feeling about how Rosalie’s would vote, but I was surprised by the reasoning behind her stance – I didn’t expect it to be at such a deep level. I thought it would be more grudge driven and NOT out of unhappiness with her fate (that’s when I started empathising with the lady).
Do you agree with Carlisle that it's the only logical choice?
As for Carlisle, he is a pacifist to the core, and that involves making everybody happy. He had seen what would happen, if Bella died, and was prepared to do anything to keep his family intact, even if it meant making Bella a vampire. The fact that she wanted to become one of them, made his dilemma easier and his decision more justified in his eyes: she’d be happy and never die, which meant Edward would not try to commit suicide, which would not hurt the rest of the Cullens – everybody happy, in the end. So, form that, I agree with him, but only if Bella stayed human for a few years...
3.Were you as stunned as Bella was when Edward asked her to marry him? How do you feel about Bella's reasons for saying no to him?
I wasn’t stunned, no. But then again, I heard about the proposal before I read the book, so I was expecting it. What surprised me was that Edward thought of it as a strategy for his gain – it wasn’t entirely romantic, was it? And that, I think, what made it easier for Bella to say plainly ‘thanks, but no thanks’. If Edward got down on one knee and produced a ring, and she wasn’t still wearing her pyjamas, then she would be stunned in a different kind of way and find it cruel to just turn him down on the spot – I think, in this scenario, it would be equivalent to shooting him in the stomach and leaving him to bleed to death slowly. In that case, she probably would have asked for some time to consider in order to ease the blow a little. As the circumstances were completely different, she didn’t feel like she was shooting him dead by saying ‘no’. …that’s what I think anyway… and yes, I completely related to her reasoning. I grew up in a small town, where people were interested in each other’s business; and the only people, who got married at 18, were the ones knocked up… I would have been completely mortified as to what everyone were saying behind my back, if I was getting married at that age, even if I wasn’t pregnant. And I know that it shouldn’t matter, what everybody thinks, but it does…
4.At this point in the series - ignoring what you know from Eclipse and Breaking Dawn - did you think Bella should marry Edward?
I don’t think I can give an answer that would not contradict my own words. Judging ONLY from the way Edward proposed to Bella in Eclipse, I’d say: ‘no way, girl, have some fun and then, later in life, yeah go for it – you don’t need official papers to be committed to someone’. But then there’s a second side to this argument: if you already know that there is no one else you want and you are completely committed to them, then a wedding is such a minor detail, that it wouldn’t matter if it happened, would it?
5.Did you think she should become a vampire as soon as possible? Or did you think she should stay mortal for a while longer?
This is one place, where I don’t see eye to eye with Bella. I’d certainly wait until I graduated at least; especially given that Carlisle had already promised he’d turn her whenever, so she had the guarantee she needed… and that would have made Edward happy… if I were her, I would have given him that little bit of happiness…
6.Did you want Edward to be the one to change Bella into a vampire? How would you feel if someone else were to change her?
I think this idea is super romantic. I’m with Bella on this one all the way – somehow Edward using his venom would make the two of them belong to each other on a whole different level *sigh* …it wouldn’t be as romantic if Carlisle did that – more sterile and technical, so to speak, like an operation – but it would be totally weird, if someone entirely different did it (I don’t even want to entertain that thought…)