Haha Hannah Montana... Oh Lord. And I'd answer that question, but it would take me forever to think of an answer... haha. :]
Awww, that's really cute! Greg sounds really sweet, and it was really courageous of him to kiss you in front of his family. He's a keeper for sure. :] And his sister can just get over it. She's probably just being overprotective of her brother. Siblings are like that. Don't worry about her. :]
Josh is single? Hmm... sounds like a nice piece of information... ;] And it sounds like you had fun at the party, so I'm glad. And I'm glad you could get along with Amber without Lu around. That's a step. :]
Awww, it sounds like you had a cute day with Ben. What a sweetie. And even though he wasn't as open as you'd probably wish he was, he's probably trying. He's just shy. And deaf in one ear. ;] But I'm glad you got to spend the day with him. And he's ripped? Oh man, what a nice attribute! ;] :]
Lol. Mark's brother. That should be interesting. Haha. :]
So Damian's still in the picture? That's okay. You don't have to get over him if you don't want to. Just realize that maybe it's not worth it to go after him anymore. Your crush will fade eventually, I promise. :] And keep us posted on Zoe! I hope she's okay! But Dan sounds cool... are you actually dating or just talking?
That's understandable about Ben. And poor Gav. I'm just glad you've gotten everything cleared up, you know? I'm sure things will return to normal in time. He just needs a little time away from you. He'll get over it eventually. Well Jacob sounds cool. It seems that you sparked under not-so-great circumstances, but that's okay... It sounds like you two really like each other. Don't worry about him not asking you out yet... some guys take longer. I'm sure he'll come around soon enough. And he'll ask you out and you'll be happy. :] I'm excited for you.
Awww, hon. I'd say keep trying with Logan... but it sounds as if he really is too immature and young to be compatible with you. I think it's smart of you to just move on from him. If he's ignoring you like that, he's not worth your time. :]
So the cast party...
Hmm, it was... interesting.
So the show ended, we all did our happy dances and we went to leave. Andy drove me and Emily (I was shotgun) and we were using his GPS system to get us to the house where the party was at. But it was going crazy and taking us all over. We finally ended up behind the girl whose house we were going to, so we just followed her.
There was a LOT of alcohol there. Like, a LOT. Casandre's (the girl whose house it was) mom bought some and another girl's older brother bought some, too. So yeah. But there were probably half of us that weren't drinking or smoking. (There was actually a little weed there... but only like three people smoked it. It was stupid.) So yeah.
Everyone who was drinking started getting trashed FAST. I was on the couch between Patrick (who wasn't drinking) and Andy (whom Casandre bought a whole bottle of whiskey for). Patrick and I kept whispering to each other about other people haha. Because this one couple was making out. (Btw, there were probably twenty people there.) And we were texting each other on my phone... haha. I love Patrick. This other guy thought we were dating and I was like, "No. I love him, but no." Haha. And Andy... slowly but surely sipped at his whiskey. And had a Guinness. And some Bailey's. And went out to smoke a cigarette about every five minutes. So he got really wasted and... I'll get to that in a second.
So this couple that was making out got under a blanket while EVERYONE was around and started HAVING SEX. No joke. And they were acting like they weren't; joining in on the conversation and stuff. It was SO WEIRD AND GROSS! And Patrick didn't spend the night, so I lost one of my buddies. Emily and my other close friends were pretty much drunk. So I was hanging out with the sober Seniors.
And Coomer kept texting me all night but I wouldn't respond. Joey outed the fact that Coomer has a crush on me to the world and like two girls there have a crush on him, so they weren't too happy with me...
So that night, people went into the bedrooms, but me, these two sober Seniors who were on the floor, Andy (who was sharing the futon with me), the sex couple, and Emily and Joey who were also on the floor were in the living room. (And again btw, it was a duplex, so Casandre has a whole floor that's like her own house. It was great.) And Joey and Emily started HOOKING UP. (The lights were off.) But I was like two feet away and I was like, "WHAT THE HELL!" It was insane. (They just made out. A lot.) So Andy was passed out next to me, snoring like you wouldn't believe. And the sex couple were having sex AGAIN. Honestly, I kid you not, they had sex out in the open there for FIVE HOURS STRAIGHT! I'm scarred for life. The things I saw and heard... Oh God. I thought I was alone in my misery, but the two sober Seniors were awake and we all went and hung out outside to talk about the trauma. So basically I got NO SLEEP AT ALL.
And Joey woke up a little after we came back inside (at like 715) and we went outside together, just us two, to talk for like two hours. It was really cool, actually. He told me all about his former life and his former girlfriends and such. And I asked him about hooking up with Emily and he said he liked her (so I guess that means he doesn't like me anymore?) and they were probably going to date. (Although Emily said it was a little awkward, so I don't know...) But it was a nice long chat. I feel closer to him.
But now for the important part. So we were sitting on the couch, right? Andy's wasted next to me. Smelling like an ashtray. And we were playing ten fingers. (Or never have I ever, as they call it, too.) And I always win. XD So I said I'd never kissed a guy and everyone flipped out. I said I'd never had a boyfriend and they all had heart attacks. "But you're so pretty! That doesn't make any sense!" Haha. And Andy was leaning REALLY, REALLY close to my face to whisper to me. He said, "Are you serious? Like really serious? No way." He was astonished. But then he would lean in to whisper to me. And this is basically what he said (with severe language cleanup because he was barely coherent):
Him: I really like you.
Me: I know...
Him: I mean, I really, really like you.
Me: I know...
Him: I just wanted to tell you because I don't have the courage to say this when I'm sober and I just, I need to tell you.
Him: Do you still like me? Because I feel like I'm making a total @$$ out of myself and I'm really sorry...
Me: Yes, I still like you.
Him: But I'm being a total @$$ and I'm so sorry...
*a few minutes later*
Him: I want to ask you something... but I'm afraid. You scare me, I'm afraid of you. I'm afraid of what you'll think.
Me: Just ask me.
Him: I... I don't... Maybe... So if I were to kiss you right now..?
Me: That wouldn't be such a great idea. (I wanted to say, "A) You're drunk. B) You have a girlfriend. And C) Your breath smells like a fifty-year-old ashtray.")
Him: But I really want to.
Me: I know. But you really shouldn't.
Him: But you've never kissed anyone before. And I want to kiss you. A lot.
Me: But you shouldn't...
Him: But I want to.
Me: I know.
Him: Well, even if you don't want to kiss me, you should kiss someone because you deserve to and I know you don't like me right now so just kiss someone else.
Me: Just because. I don't want to.
Him: That's not a reason.
*a while later, he's come around behind me because he'd been outside smoking*
Him: Do you hate me? I'm sorry.
Me: No, I don't hate you.
Him: Good. Because I really like you. Really, really, like you. I'm sorry.
Me: It's okay.
Him: Well, I feel like an @$$ and I'm gonna go to bed.
Me: Okay. Goodnight...
So he went off to another room and then came out a few hours later and crashed on the futon with me. He didn't actually ever try to kiss me, but we were PRETTY DAMN CLOSE, so I thought he was going to.
He texted me this morning telling me how sorry he was. But I just said, "Whatever, you were drunk. I get it." Ugh.